The most amazing change is, that food is not longer “talking to me” and “pulling me”
I served a 3 course meal on Friday night, and was full after the second course. I did not touch the third course, my favourite, Chinese chicken, even when I was busy serving and clearing up…
Hey this was amazing!!!
My thoughts were focused! No jumble, no tangle. Just one thought at a time.
For the last 3 years every week I’ve had a diet coach attend my home. I am a 5 foot 5 inches, and a regular size 14. Since forever and especially the last 5 years I just felt that something was “off” It was so very hard to eat a balanced diet and have self-control.
Since the meds started working, my level of feeling in control regarding food has turned around 360 degrees.
To be fair I had worked mightily hard to instil goo eating habits. Now all the meds does is take away that edge if impulsivity/self control challenge. I baked two types of cupcakes last night. A batch of chocolate cup cakes and honey biscuits for my family the week. Yes, with my full time job and being a mum, I still do home baking. (I put into practise the tools I teach my clients.) I didn’t touch one! When the meds wore off I only ate one, and it didn’t really pull me to eat it…Before meds, I would have had 3 easily.
I don’t have that physical pain in my brain that had been accompanying me since forever, whenever I had to play with the kids, or listen to long detailed conversations… or do boring tasks whatever they were.
There was a minor extended family crisis on Friday afternoon. I handled it calmly. On Friday night when I was discussing this incident with my daughter and my husband, I couldn’t believe that I was listening to myself being able to keep my voice at a calm level, and calmly explain myself… This had NEVER happened before… No hysterical histrionics, no drama queen… Just clear, calm and solution oriented.
Post-meds, I realise that my intense paralysing fear of driving to new places, and motorways was largely caused by my unmanaged ADHD. Due to my difficulties in focusing, my brain sensed my lack of focus, and kicked in to protect me. I remember the first time I was driving post-meds, and I sensed a certain change in my ability to focus. A thought crossed my mind, “I feel so focused, I think I can handle motorways now…” Another thought crossed my mind, “Faigy, did you just think that?”